-=[Damn This Sickness.. ]=-

Played soccer from 4-9pm last fri in TP.. like madness soccer.. hahaz.. play till legs like jelly lahz.. b4 we stopped only when d lights r being turned off.. super fun.. hahaz.. then went 2 eat dinner b4 going home n really SLP!!

Sat was on campus again.. like sianz.. didnt really get gd comments from our supervisor.. guess we hav been too slack.. hahaz.. then after tt went 2 buy PSP at Eastpoint.. n go Ben's house kope hell a lot of games.. enuff 2 last me a long long long time.. hahaz..

Been sick since sat, d day i bought my PSP.. sianz supp 2 b like super happy then lidat.. although its getting a little better today.. Hav been a little moody lately n made a mistake.. but then my bro is d best.. hahaz.. so its settled now..

Working now is damn sianz.. noting much 2 do in d office nowadays.. so sometimes jus play PSP.. hehez.. rox.. havoc in d office sumtimes.. like d day Shamus threw a CD at me n cut my lips.. ahahaz.. basket.. now i noe how pain it can b when salt goes into a wound.. =.='' hahaz..

Went 2 Expo today 4 some convention/seminars which mostly business ppl noes.. mus hav invites or sumting de i tink.. like cool! got our own identity passes each summore.. n inside we get 2 c new technologies n new phones which has not even come out in d market yet.. like Sony Ericsson K850.. it has a freaking 5mp cam lahz.. n its like only coming out in december! n also a Prada fully touchscreen phone, as well as d LG series Shine.. 4 those interested, Prada phone is 1.5k n K850 is arnd 1k.. start saving up! hahaz..

Went 4 lunch at Eastpoint 4 lunch b4 going 2 Shamus's house 2 play bball while HL happily play my PSP game "Burnout Dominator".. zZz lidat i play wat?? ahahaz.. but not bad lahz he help me unlock new cars.. hehez..

-=[I Hav D Best Bro In D World!! ]=-

-=[Lolz.. ]=-

Basket so long nvr update my blog then all come disturb me lahz.. ring ring summore.. knn.. hahaz.. decided 2 delete last post coz its no longer valid in my life(at least 4 now.. hahaz.. ).. been feeling more cheerful recently coz i hav some stupid n lame frenz 2 hang arnd wit 2 cheer me up.. ahahaz.. although it sux tt i hav my startup now when all having hols now!! if not can go out more often.. =.=''

Oh well.. at least working isnt tt bad now, other than d fact tt i alwayz not enuff slp.. hahaz.. but at least got some income no matter how little.. now tt i hav so many tings 2 buy.. got my new street soccer shoes like finally.. after d old one's soles were like totally worn out till no more rubber left.. i bet no one uses their shoes till soles got hole.. super wear n tear!! lolz..

Not bad.. d shoes gives me so much more control now.. hehez.. scored 2 goals at tanah merah summore.. n tanah merah is a place i seldom score.. summore both was damn nice.. one was a sorta volley in front of goal n another was joshua taking goal kick n i blocked d kick n deflected into goal.. hahaz a bit tyco but it was timing also kz.. =P

Ben d gay bastard.. everyting also quek mus b there.. quek no come soccer means dun wan come.. quek at parkway means he wan go.. tsk tsk.. lolz.. n he n his "One Ball Fan Club".. lolz.. laugh till peng san..

Now like every sat is movie outing.. Pirates 3, Ocean's 13, F4 next wk, Harry Potter soon, n wat nots.. lolz shoik siaz.. too bad i still havent got 2 play my bridge wit them!! hahaz.. every sat is like totally packed.. n im enjoying it.. ^^

Hopefully hav cage on wed.. i miss d cage also.. hahaz.. d mad running soccer arena.. lolz.. but sianz lahz.. leg still hurts when i twist it 2 d rite.. like omg can.. 1.5 mths havent heal.. dunno wats wrong..

-=[FANTASTIC 4!!]=-

-=[Leg Pain!! ]=-

Sigh.. i guess noting has changed from d last post.. jus heard this song as d first when i started itunes today.. n it sorta describes d situation im in currently..

Vanessa Hudgens - Whatever Will Be

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bird with broken wings
At times I dread my now and envy where I've been
But that's when quiet wisdom takes control
At least I've got a story no one's told
[Chorus]
I finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be
I've learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land
These days it feels naive to put your faith in hope
To imitate a child, fall backwards on the snow
'Cause that's when fears will usually lead you blind
But now I try to under-analyse
[Chorus]
Is the rope I walk wearing thin?
Is the life I love caving in?
Is the weight on your mind
A heavy black bird caged inside?
Say
Whatever will be will be
Take
The good, the bad
Just breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land
Whatever will be will be
I learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
Thing like that are never in your hands
No one knows if shooting stars will land

Taking d gd is easy, but i dun tink i can ever take d bad n jus breathe..

Hav anyone ever thought abt d most impt person in your life?? wat do u do when tt person doesnt even seem 2 care abt u??

Couldnt run today at soccer.. legs felt like lead.. guess i didnt hav enuff slp ytd.. 2 make tings worse, twisted my ankle badly after blocking a shot from wah tt hit d wrong spot of my leg n landing on it.. fuck.. swollen like siaoz now..

At least had a nice lunch wit bak n wah at jack's place b4 walking arnd parkway.. then went home after tt..

*Add*
Some ppl jus likes 2 get on my nerves ehh?? seriously ar.. some jokes r not in d least funny at all..

-=[The End? ]=-

-=[Y does sadness keep me a a fren?? ]=-

Last few wks of SIP was not much 2 tok abt.. noting tt i really wanna rmb.. other than tt day we went 2 sign d contract.. was in a bad mood since like 1 wk ago.. one i couldnt ignore n was overpowering.. best words 2 describe it, being pushed 2 d edge so much u jus wanna jump off d edge instead.. ok fine.. he toked 2 me.. he gave me hope again, but wat use is it if its jus sum stop-gap measures?? feels so much like it was jus a one day ting..

No one is perfect, i totally agree, but i jus hoped tt he would sometimes tink abt how i feel inside.. all tt i ask is tt once in a while he would be willing 2 give me some of his time.. time 4 me 2 go 2 him 4 advice, 2 b able 2 go out wit him like wat frenz do.. jus tt.. he seems too busy 2 even notice im there.. everytime i ask him d same kinda question, its alwayz d same answer.. busy.. even gym seems more impt 2 him.. n tt guy especially.. mayb im a little jealous i dun get 2 go out wit my best fren AT ALL.. its like so wierd.. as if i was a stranger 2 him.. makes me feel like im jus a hi-bye fren 2 him..

Not tt he may ever noe abt this ting bugging me 4 so long.. he doesnt hav time 2 look at my blog.. so i guess this will alwayz b sumting bugging me..

Man Utd r champs.. but now it seems like no big deal anymore.. mayb it was my dream 2 hav lunch at Ritz Carlton.. one which will nvr b fulfilled even though d criteria was met, tt Man Utd were champs.. guess this double blow is a little too much 4 me 2 take.. kinda expected all this.. not tt i wanted tings like tt 2 happen..

-=[Shld i hang on?? ]=-

-=[Flashbacks of YesterYears.. ]=-

Its finally here again.. d feelings, d thgts, d same unhappiness tt jus comes back yr after yr.. thgt he cared.. but doesnt seem 2 show thru his actions.. did i really went 2 d wrong person?? i no longer noe.. seems like i made a wrong decision last yr, approximately 8 mths ago from now.. or mayb d fault lies wit myself, tt i ask too much, hoped 4 too much..

The tension btwn me n tt guy was stretched even more today.. not helped by d fact tt i was left alone by myself.. doesnt bother me tt much tt im left alone, its more of d actions of a particular someone.. i swear by the heart of my Angel Of Death, tt i will seek revenge on d person i hate.. b it small matters or big ones.. but i will not rest till justice is carried out in front of me.. its time i showed my evil side tt i hav not shown since god knows when.. this is a justice i seek 2 address.. even if it mite cost me more than wat i liked..

Revenge will be sweet..

-=[Countdown of 20.. ]=-

-=[SIP SUX!! ]=-

Hav been feeling a little down lately.. then d tings on sat had 2 happen.. however, my bro toked 2 me n gave me some advice which cheered me up a little, knowing tt he still cares abt me.. hehez.. well its not over as i hav 2 control my emotions 4 another 15 wks b4 mayb i wont c him again.. this 15 wks arent gonna b easy.. Anywayz my bro is sumone whom i look up 2 as a sort of big brother 2 me.. someone i can go 4 advice.. doubt anyone knows who he is but dun ask me coz i wont tell..

Heres a shoutout 2 all my frenz who hav given me words of encouragement.. feel tt u guys deserve more than jus a tag on my tagboard.. u guys deserve special mention here where everyone will read.. really appreciate all d advices n encouragements u all hav given me.. special mentions 2 louis shu yi n esp my bro.. some others like claire zen also.. u guys rox.. hahaz.. i'l do my best 2 4get abt tt guy.. =D

D last wk was all SIP stuffs.. from mon to fri we worked in our own company, since we doing startup.. its sort of like a 9-6pm job so its hella tiring.. most of d days stayed in our room doing stuffs 4 our business.. went 2 meet our client on thurs 2 sign d contract on thurs.. hav been doing d HTML textbk from tues onwards till now.. finishing up soon.. its 4 our plan 2 go schs 2 teach HTML.. wish us luck!! hahaz..

Sun went 4 magic prerelease.. d only time i would not miss magic 4 anyting.. esp since i stopped being a hardcore player n jus a "want-2-go-then-go" player.. sold hell a lot of cards there n earned quite a lot.. lolz didnt noe tt i had so much cards worth hella lotsa money.. hahaz.. selling a few choice cards i dun need already brought me close 2 $100.. wootz!!

Wasnt a gd prerelease 4 me.. didnt really play well, n i hate d cards in this set.. its not as fun as other sets.. d cards r jus cool, esp d futuristic cards.. however, d cards r super hard 2 b playable.. sianz.. expected quite a lot from this exp summore.. mayb its gd 4 a few cards only.. d super few cards worth money.. tts all.. sux shit.. anywayz my record was 2 wins 2 loss 4 d first pre n 1 win 1 draw 2 loss 4 d 2nd pre.. one of my worst pre ever..

-=[I R Tired Of Working.. ]=-

-=[Feeling Emo Now.. ]=-

Y is it tt the world seems 2 b playing a v bad joke on me?? jus when i thgt tt i would not c d guy anymore, i now hav 2 c him at least once per wk.. take today 4 example.. bad enuff i had 2 sit in d same room as tt guy, all bcoz he is also startup.. n there i was tinking tt i would not c him anymore coz he would get lost in some company doing his attachment.. then after we got out, had 2 hang arnd him coz everyone was there.. he tried 2 ask shamus 2 go eat wit him, but i managed 2 ask shamus 2 eat wit me instead.. thgt tt was d end of him..

Went 2 TM food court n we had 2 meet him at LJS.. how fucking sway can i b.. luckily didnt eat there but he still came 2 find us all d same.. y cant he jus get lost, jump down n die?? asked shamus 2 watch movie wit him n shamus happily left me alone wit andrew n JL.. n andrew was going off.. at least louis n d rest was at cafe cartel, so i could find them.. but wat if they werent there?? i bet shamus would hav gone wit him 2 watch movie all d same.. i wouldnt mind tt much other times.. but d point was, i asked shamus first.. he alwayz go wit whoever asked him first, so y is it different this time?? its jus not fair 2 me..

I alwayz had d feeling tt guy was doing all of these purposely.. not d first time he asked shamus 2 go out wit him sumwhere when i wanted 2 go out wit shamus actually.. i dunno wat i mus do so tt tt guy is 4ever out of my life.. kill him??

Mayb i hate tt guy coz i blame him 4 a lot of unplesant stuffs tt happened in poly.. stuffs tt i nvr had 2 experience in sec sch.. n each n every one of my unplesant incidents in poly seemed 2 b due 2 him in some way or other.. 3 or 4 major incidents which made me hate him 2 d core, d last major one had me tinking thgts of killing him on d spot.. first time i actually tink like tt n it scared me then.. i guess, if i had a gun in my hands then, my impulse would b 2 shoot him.. i noe i will regret it if i do it, n till now im still trying 2 suppress tt desire 2 finish it once n 4 all.. mayb tts y i mite not b able 2 tink of him as a fren any longer..

Seriously i dunno wat 2 do now.. fuck shit..

-=[BANG BANG!! :( ]=-